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Swimming in the Beauty of the Broken Heart
Online event: Sept 6 7-9pm NZT 9-11am CET
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Swimming in the Beauty of the Broken Heart
Online event: Sept 6 7-9pm NZT 9-11am CET
Swimming in the Beauty of the Broken Heart
Online event: Sept 6 7-9pm NZT 9-11am CET
Swimming in the Beauty of the Broken heart
Have you built layers of protection around your heart to prevent it from being broken?
Have you had your heart broken, and then quickly re-gathered and strengthened its protections, vowing quietly that such a thing will never happen again? Did you read those two sentences just fast enough so they could not go in?
It could be that these heart protections are exactly what is preventing you from accessing archetypal love. How many more years are you prepared to use up without the ability to really touch and be touched by life?
Your broken heart may not be a problem to be fixed afterall, it might even be an asset.
This space is a place to come and find out for yourself.
Cultivating the Broken Heart
Building love that lasts - Clinton Callahan ~ pages 257 - 259
In one way or another each of us has been wounded. In order to develop the matrix of consciousness upon which our being can grow, our childhood innocence must, in some manner and at some point in time, be taken away from us.
Whether the destruction of our innocence was brutal and extended, or precise and swift, does not so much matter. What matters is that, at some point, like now, we gain the clarity about what happened to us from the perspective of a bigger picture about the process we are involved in.
What is important is that we come to understand the necessity, value and use of shattered innocence.
Innocence may be shattered through being betrayed, abandoned, or abused, through losing something you cherish, or being stuck with something you hate.
One person’s innocence is shattered by being born prematurely and living their first three months in a plastic incubator. Another person’s innocence is shattered by being sent to public school when they are five years old. Someone else’s innocence is destroyed by the psycho-emotional terrors perpetrated on their family by an alcoholic father or a choleric mother, by a disease or an accident requiring surgery, by being sexually molested or by someone close suddenly dying, by natural disaster or the effect of war.
Whatever exactly happened to you, whatever story you produce about what happened, the consequence of the wounding will be the same at the moment of the wounding as it is now, even if the wounding was lifetimes ago. The result of the wounding will be objective, having the same result from person to person. The result of your wounding is a broken heart.
To move into the space of Archetypal Love requires the broken heart. Your first reaction to the image of having a broken heart could well be revulsion – a broken heart is a weakness, a vulnerability that saddles you with a handicap. What could it mean, a “broken heart”?
First of all, it is not the heart that is broken. The heart is fine. What breaks is the agglomerated encrustations around your heart, that you collected so as to buffer your heart against experiencing an intensity of feelings you thought you could never bear.
You defended your heart in order to survive. And it worked. You did survive. Your intention was noble and successful. Your intention was to take care of yourself so that you could continue to live. You lived and you grew. You matured, until that which once defended you has now become your prison. What may be happening now is that you are outgrowing your own defenses. The tricks you created to stay untouchable are as irrelevant as diapers, as unnecessary as a baby bottle, as extraneous as training wheels on your bicycle. The broken heart is hard earned, and commonly perceived as an avoidable evil, something that God lets happen as an oversight. An extraordinary event must occur to shift a victim’s view of having a broken heart to include its true value. How is one to responsibly understand and use the pain of deceit and betrayal to expand compassion rather than shrink it? How can a broken heart serve Archetypal Love?
The answer is counterintuitive. A broken heart is so tender and raw that considering doing violence to another person or to nature feels like raw skin scraped on hot pavement. It is not the pain of “being violated” but the pain of “being about to cause violence” yourself that changes you. When pain about your own unconscious behavior wakes you up to the depth of your unconsciousness, then, your broken heart changes the way you behave. You care too much about the being of a person to be insulted by their Box. You cannot even pretend to take revenge. Why take revenge against a sleeping machine when there is a living being in there, whom you could love?
When you accept the unexpurgated experience of your broken heart, there may come times when you think you want to die of overwhelm from shame, from isolation, from depression, grief, or remorse. But you do not die. Instead, you live on within an intensity of experience, far above what you previously defined as the maximum limit. Even if you do not know how this process works, you continue living. In these times you have “hit bottom.” You have given up trying to control the circumstances and have become fluid to a level that you previously assumed would drive you crazy. Then, you discover that in these times you are, to a high degree, transparent to the Principles that serve what is wanted and needed in the space, because your Box does not care to interfere with its dreary opinions anymore. Using Your Broken Heart as a Gateway).
As paradoxical as this may sound, in my experience the upperworld is entered through the bottom of the underworld. Your broken-heartedness gives you answers that you thought could only be found elsewhere through struggle or merit. In those “worst” of times, as you look back on your life, you see that having abundant compassion toward your own broken heart is what finally made sense.
If you practice delaying your reflexive moves that try to patch up the cracks in your heart, the heart will gradually relax into staying open even when it hurts. You develop distinctions between the different kinds of hurting. Is it fear? Is it rage? Is it sadness? Is it joy? Is this a feeling or is it emotion from the past? Is this my pain or is it someone else’s pain? Is this feeling mixed together with other feelings, or is it a pure feeling? How big is it – what percentage?
Accepting your own broken heart is a new experience. Your whole body may find empathy, may become unpredictably kind and generous, may sense what is happening in its proximity as if it is happening to itself – not because your heart wants to feel these things, but by the very fact that it is broken and no longer protected with a sense of already-knowing certainty. The broken heart opens to wide-band exchange, both with other people and with specific situations. It encounters a new kind of energetic flowthrough. Sooner or later, you come to discover that the experiences that shattered your innocence and eventually broke your heart open gave you the exact reference points and sensitivities that you need to serve others and fulfill your destiny. Your pain has been your apprenticeship.
A broken heart becomes the gateway to Archetypal Relationship domains when you accept the totality of its brokenness. There is a difference between accepting broken heartedness as a permanent condition, and enduring a broken heart as a temporary strategy, just long enough to get through a moment of anguish. Enduring a broken heart is conditional. But Archetypal Love is unconditional. Archetypal Love cannot land in the relationship space you hold, until you are willing for it to be there forever. Then, Archetypal Love comes and goes as it pleases. By trying to endure a temporary broken heart without accepting an irreparably broken heart, the wall stays in place.
A man’s broken heart exposes him to unspeakably precious experiences, that were too frightening for a heart guarded by reactionary machine guns. Experiences that were previously too intense become suddenly too temporary. Tenderly caressing the aliveness in your woman’s hand enchants you endlessly.Within the field of your delicate attentions her she-ness unfolds into none other than the true Archetypal Feminine, the astounding Goddess, the same one who was Mary Magdalena to Jesus, who was Shakti to Shiva, who was Radha to Krishna. This radiantly alluring she-being stands in relationship to you, and every cell in your system tingles with the connection. You smell the musky warmth of her skin; you stroke the electric tangles of her hair. Maximum Womanliness fully and richly responds to your glance. She speaks into your fortunate ears. She willingly spends precious moments of her life sharing ordinary chores with you, while exuding flawless beauty, every breath and gesture only full of love.
She envelopes you in her nurturing and healing balm of legendary proportions, the taste of which you can neither absorb enough nor appreciate enough. Being too close aches as much as being too distant, and yet she is the focus of your unquenchable longing when you appreciate and accept your broken heart.
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